I’m not one to tell y’all what I’m binge watching because generally it’s embarrassing or I’ve gotten better since I’m busy now to watch an episode at a time, ya know like people normally would. And you probably honestly don’t care. But the show I recently binge watched, was one I wasn’t expecting or expected to have real emotions during. But I did and I’m still heart broken over it; so since it is that good I just had to tell y’all about it.
I had not heard of 13 Reasons Why (I had no idea it was a book or created by Selena Gomez). I even ignored the preview on Netflix earlier in the month; I simply passed it off as another teen drama. But then I noticed a friend whom is a teacher talking about it, so thought I would put it on as background noise for making dinner. I was making a chicken bake, so nothing was going to burn, but I didn’t want to keep missing the parts when I got up to do laundry and other nightly chores. After dinner, I had to restart the show and I was drawn in. Needless to say I was up until about 3am on Monday morning watching because I just had to know what happened next. I later finished the Netflix original on Thursday, and lately I haven’t been binge watching anything with my hectic schedule.
Without giving away what happens, the trailer even tells you this much; the concept is Hannah has taken her life and left tapes to explain why and the show focus around Clay, Hannah’s crush/love, listening. Even though it’s high school based, the reason I was so drawn in is we have all either been Hannah or known a Hannah. Also the characters are all familiar; the popular crowd, the loner, the kid who might do a school shooting, the friendly crowd, the shy kid, the kid with no money and the kid with all the money who gets away with everything. All of them trying to find their way and themselves through the harsh reality of life.
But the show’s creators and writers did not leave any stone unturned. The show talks about things that high schoolers and young adults (even adults) face. Bullying, sexual assault, depression, rape, alcoholism and the list goes on. They take it head on, not something that is pushed under the rug. It’s raw and real. It honestly feels like the most realistic thing I’ve watched in a really long time.
I as a 28 year adult, cried. I cried more times than I would like to actually admit. The scene that got me the most was the school dance scene. A perfect moment in time. Like we have all had before. A moment that captures that awkward yet thrilling moment of young or fresh love. A moment we never think would be a memory due to a tragic fate.
When Clay hears is own tape, I balled. Like a baby. Sometimes you can love someone so much but still not be able to help them the way they need you too. Or you may not even know they needed help, because on the outside they were holding it together so well, or maybe even semi well. This hit home a little too much with a bunch of personal stuff going on.
The graphic scene of the actual suicide makes you really think. What could I do a little more to make sure someone feels that they have no other choice. No one to help them. No one to run to. No one to comfort them. I have suffered with depression since the age of the characters in the show. I have gotten to that point. But then I always had someone bring me back. And we all need that from time to time.
A show to make you think. A show to make you feel emotions. A show to make you love and compassionate. A show to make you think about those around you. A show to make you live life to fullest. A show to make you thankful. A show to make you think about the things you say and do. A show to make you aware you effect others. A show to make you tell people you love, that you love them. A show to make you aware, the world is rough and every single one of us has to encounter it’s harshness.